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School girl with a pink bag (3 of n)

In Daily living, Random, Unraveled on May 30, 2013 at 7:29 am

Gloomy Wednesday, I must say. The sun is in hiding, too early. I am a bit early today after all. Different people, different faces, no little girl with pink bag this morning.

Bus is here. I board the bus and see a little boy with his mother is going to school. He must be around the same age as the girl. The difference is this little boy smile happily!

He has that innocent smile of a child. Believe it or not , it brings a smile on my face too. This boy should wake up even earlier, his blue bag seem to be a lot bigger compare to the girl’s pink one and must be even heavier. And yet he’s happy.

And then the thought struck me. I know why I was bothered by the little girl!

I.J.G

School girl with a pink bag (2 of n)

In Daily living, Random, Unraveled on May 29, 2013 at 9:41 am

It’s typical Monday morning. The school girl already sitting at the bus stop when I reached. What’s with the long face, little girl? Something bothering you? Are you sad? Or you’re just not a morning person, just like me?

The bus is coming, I am standing just by the side. The bus door is almost in front of me once it stopped. All of the sudden, this girl cut pass through me and stood right in front. I was quite stunt with this. What’s with the rush? I mean other people also boarding the same bus and it will just a matter of seconds to wait for people to go in. Why is she so eagerly have to be the first one boarding the bus?

After that day, I noticed that that little girl always do the same thing when boarding the bus. She has to be the first one, she doesn’t care that she’s cutting right in front of other people. And once again, this small thing tickles me.

Why am I bother in the first place? She’s just a typical school girl who in the rush to go to school, isn’t she?
Or that’s what I thought.

I.J.G

School girl with a pink bag (1 of n)

In Daily living, Random, Unraveled on May 29, 2013 at 7:42 am

There’s something I’ve noticed recently on my way to work. Something that tickles me deep inside.

Every morning, I leave to work at 6.45 a.m and wait for the bus to go to the train station. Almost everyday, I see the same familiar faces that also start their activities around the same time. One of them is this little girl, maybe around 9-10 years old.

This girl is getting ready to go to school. With her pink bag filled with knowledge, she’s waiting for the same bus maybe with some level anxiety: when will the bus arrive? Will it just come earlier? I won’t be late for school, will I?

Maybe I also have that some level of anxiety. After all we all have our own schedule to follow, right?

But what I noticed about this girl at first is that she always looks so gloomy. There’s a frown. Then I just started wondering, “Why the long face? Is she alright?”.

I keep seeing her every morning at the same bus stop. And I see the same frowny face every day. I asked myself again: “Is it school over here really stressful? Look at the big bag, must be heavy. Is it the bag? Maybe it’s too heavy for her and she troubled it?”

Day by day my questions increasing. This girl really drawn my attention. There something about her, what is it exactly?

I.J.G

Holiday trip – Krabi (3 of n)

In Journey on May 28, 2013 at 11:56 pm

Let’s continue our story, shall we?

So after we arrived at the resort, we settled ourselves and freshen up after quite a long journey to get there. I think we rather lucky on this holiday, why?

1. Apparently, few days before our arrival, there has been a lighting strike that affected the electricity for some of the room in the resort, which are the superior rooms. This was suppose to be our room as per the package deal we bought. Since no electricity for the superior room, we’re bumped up to deluxe room instead! Larger and more spacious room!

2. Because we’re not really do any kind of research before decided on when we would go for the trip before, apparently this time of year is a monsoon season over there and thus low season for tourist. The lucky part I am referring to is the fact that we’re the only guest there and it makes us VVIP! We’re getting the best and personal services as much as you can imagine! Another silver lining afterall!

After freshen up, we are going out to look around for food nearby. Although we’re pretty lucky, I guess there still always two side on every coin, so here’s the downside:

1. Apparently, due to low season, most of the shop on that area are practically closed! Except of course 7/11 minimart right across the street. This is including some of the restaurants around! Not as easy to find food as we would’ve thought. Even coffe shop is closing by 7 pm!! I mean, seriously?? Oh well, I guess things are totally different over here than our usual big city vibe.

2. It was pretty gloomy weather there. When we came it’s practically started to rain. There’s no sunshine whatsoever (which was totally fine by me, since I am not a fan of sun (I’ll tell you why some other time)). I mean for a trip to a island or beach area, you are of course expecting “holiday in the sun” theme, right? Even I do!

Luckily, we’re managed to find one place to eat and just by the beach! Pretty nice, huh? The local food is just unbelivably nice! After that, we were just wandering along the beach, enjoying the weather after the rain and just how beatiful the scenery are. I can actually feel peace. Not something I can get living in the big city, I must tell you. Over here, it’s nothing but you, the beach, the sea and the blue sky. Bliss.Image

..We are tied to the ocean. And when we go back to the sea, whether it is to sail or to watch – we are going back from whence we came..

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..We must free ourselves of the hope that the sea will ever rest. We must learn to sail in high winds..

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..Near the sea we forget to count the days..

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..At the beach, life is different. Time doesn’t move hour to hour but mood to moment. We live by the currents, plan by the tides, and follow the sun..

To be continued..

I.J.G

Holiday trip – Krabi (2 of n)

In Journey on May 27, 2013 at 10:04 pm

I’m back!!! πŸ˜€

For those of you who don’t know, I was away on holiday trip for these few days. It was short, but boy, do I have a GREAT time!! I have LOTS to write about my holiday and of course, pictures πŸ˜‰ Ok, here it goes!

I was going for a short holiday trip to Krabi Island, Thailand, on last long weekend. As I mention in previous post, I promised myself to make this year a travelling year. After the hiking trip, my next travelling destination is Krabi, Thailand. Specifically, in Koh Lanta.

I went with one of my friend, only the two of us. We booked this trip since the end of last year. All we had in mind is that this trip will be relaxing and soothing kind of trip. Turned out, it was more than just that!

So on Friday, we took a morning flight to Krabi. The flight was only 1.5 hours. We landed around 12pm in the afternoon. What we didn’t realise it that our resort is 2.5 hours away from the Krabi International Airport. Fortunately, we asked the resort for airport transport to pick us up (thanks for my friend who unlikely not to lazy to do a little research before the trip :p)

To get to Koh Lanta, we need to cross using car ferry, twice. It’s like a boat which bring few cars and motorcycles to cross from one island to another. Here’s the snapshot of the ferry, the view surrounds it, and us on it!Image

..the cars and motorbikes on the car ferry..Image

..car ferry from behind..

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smile!

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..and this is how it looks like..

So after a rather long drive, we arrived at the resort, Lanta Manda Resort. It was a nice place and good service! I would recommend it if you ever plan to go there πŸ™‚

Ok, that’s just the story about how we started the journey and arrived at the beautiful place, which I would personally think as a little place close to heaven on earth.

To be continued πŸ˜‰

I.J.G

Holiday trip – Krabi (1 of n)

In Journey on May 24, 2013 at 12:10 am

I am so psyched right now! Because I am going for a short-and-relaxing weekend to Krabi, Thailand! Woohoo!

As I entered 2013, I promised myself this year gonna be different, I will do something I didn’t get to do before. And one of the thing I promised that this year will be my travelling year!

I am born in Indonesia, and currently living in Singapore and that’s just how far I went so far. I always wants to travelling around the world! Meet new people from different country, different culture and just having the moment of your life!

Early this year, I went to Kuala Lumpur with my mom and sister. Still not very far, but it’s one more place I can stealth of my list.

Early March this year, I went for hiking trip to Mount Datuk, Malaysia. And just so you know I really fight all my natural instinct when I decided to go for it. I have acrophobia. And I would never ever think about going hiking! I can’t even stand by the edge of a balcony, let alone climbing a mountain. And yet I did it anyway! And I am so proud of myself! You can see some of the pictures I took during the trip below πŸ™‚

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So this time, for just a short break, me and one of my friend will go to Krabi, Thailand. I am all packed and so ready to go tomorrow! This trip will be super fun!

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I’ll update you later about my trip with lots of pictures of course! πŸ˜€

I.J.G

The dark corner of my mind (1 of n)

In Unraveled on May 23, 2013 at 7:12 am

It’s that dream again. What do people call it? Nightmares? But this one is nothing about ghosts or goblins.

It’s just a regular daily life activity about random person, close and unknown, with totally random settings and places. Again, some are familiar and some unknown.

So why the hell it bothered me so much? It scared the living soul out of me. Is it the person involved, the place, the settings, the plot or something that happened in that dream itself?

I couldn’t figure it out myself, but it wrecked my whole system. I got trouble sleeping and lead to insomnia. I am too afraid to sleep. I developed an anxiety attack every time I encountered the dream. And lately it became worse.

Why am I keep having this kind of dreams? What does it mean? Is it trying to tell me something? Something that I forgot, that I left behind on that deepest corner of my mind, wishing and hoping it’ll just stay there and keep quite?

Unfortunately, whatever it was, it came crawling back from that dark corner of my mind. And it refuses to be left there again. No more silence, it’s time to reveal the untold stories.

I.J.G

Change: possible or impossible?

In Random on May 22, 2013 at 5:26 pm

Suddenly this topic crossed my mind. Not really out of nowhere, but something that I’ve been struggling over the past few months now.

They say that we have to accept the thing that we can’t change, and change the thing we can’t accept.

But not unusual that we’ve encountered something we can’t accept, yet we can’t really do something about it too.
Doesn’t it make you frustrated? To realise that you’re powerless?

And knowing that it’s not because you’re scared to get out of the comfort zone, or lack of motivation, but believe it or not, something it’s just get out of hand and we’re in no position or power to do something about it.

Have you ever have this kind of feeling? I did, no I still do.
And at some point it really effect me to the extend that I am angry and agitated to myself for not being able to change the situation. Darn it, I want to! To try my best to make a difference.

Easier said than done, huh?
So, tell me this. If you’re in the same situation what will you do?

You will just accept and acknowledge the fact the situation sucks, nothing you can do about it and in the end just accept it? Go with the flow?

Or you will fight your arse off no matter what to try to change the situation, even just for a little bit?

How do you let go when every fiber of your soul is saying, “hold on and give it one more try”?

I.J.G

Bye bye rain

In Romance? on May 22, 2013 at 11:11 am

How long has it been?
The raindrops, their sound, and watery touch, only bring your tears to mind.

When I thought you might be somewhere crying, I wondered if I could stop the rain with these hands.

What’s going on?
What’s wrong with my heart?
I see.
I may be able to comfort you, but I can’t get close enough to protect you.

What if what’s stop the rain isn’t me? And what if it’s not tears but sadness that summoned the rain, then will I in the future do as I have in the past?

What would cause you to be so sad that you have no more tears to shed?

Will I continue to live on without noticing these sad tears?
Was passion burning inside of a heart this calm?

Bye bye rain.
Even though I always wanted to be what cleared the rain, I’ve been undone.

Bye bye rain.
From now on, I’ll show you these hands can clear the rain.

I.J.G

Let’s start the journey!

In Uncategorized on May 22, 2013 at 12:51 am

Greetings! Let’s get acquainted shall we? First thing first you should no about me, that I am extraordinary. And no, I am not exaggerating. I’ll let you find out about it yourself as we get along.

I have unraveled mind that sometimes giving me a hard time. There’s a reason why my mind playing tricks on me, but am not gonna bore you with that details for now either.

I started writing this blog because I need to tell my story, put it out there. Something is easier to be said in writing than tell in person. Especially mine.

Anyway, enough about me. Why don’t you give me something about you? After all it’s a two-way street, at least that’s what I want it to be!

Cheers!
I.J.G

P.S: oh, if you wonder who I am. I go by the name Inez πŸ˜‰