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Empty hand (2 of n)

In Random, Unraveled on August 31, 2013 at 2:23 pm

When will that someday come?
When that ‘someday’ arrives,
I wonder if he will be next to me.

Things that I can’t do anything about other than by just thinking about them keep going around and around my head.

I.J.G

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Empty hand (1 of n)

In Random, Unraveled on August 30, 2013 at 11:02 pm

Even if it becomes something I’ll regret later, I think it’ll be okay if I go into it with both hands out, reach out for someone.

But it’s probably easier if one hand stays empty, huh?

I.J.G

At the end of the dream

In Unraveled on August 24, 2013 at 1:30 pm

All I know there’s only you
And that you’re mine
And one day we will meet again,
At the end of my dreams that was erased by time

You’re standing in front of me
You’re in my embrace
And I don’t want it to pass
Just let me replay it once more

I want you to hug me
Let me try to be close to you
I will give you all as long as you know,
I will always love you

  • “If tears could make a staircase,
    And heartaches make a lane,
    I’d walk the path to heaven
    And bring you home again.”
  • I.J.G

    Turning point

    In Unraveled on August 15, 2013 at 8:43 pm

    Do I want to continue?
    Or do I want to go back?
    Would I even be able to go back?

    If we changed, then haven’t you changed too?
    But then so what?
    Does it matter what the past was like?
    He was right.
    No matter how we change, it’s not important, is it?

    I.J.G

    Stuck

    In Unraveled on August 13, 2013 at 8:00 am

    As I watch the rain drops, my mind wanders. Why do I feel suffocated with everything? How did I get stuck in the situation, seems unable to move?

    But I think the major question is: why do I let myself tangled in so deep that I couldn’t get out and free myself?

    I.J.G

    Perfect time to say goodbye

    In Random, Romance?, Unraveled on August 12, 2013 at 6:55 am

    When you left,
    Far away and never coming back,
    I will make my peace with it,
    Because I know you’re happy over there, forever,
    Even without me.

    I will understand what love is,
    With everything we’ve been through,
    I will make sure all the memories we shared stays,
    I keep it dear in my heart.

    Could I survive without you?

    As the rain hugs me, when I saw you fade away,
    This is the perfect time to say goodbye.

    As the storm caress me, when I saw you looking back at me,
    Your footprints whispered,
    This is the perfect time to say goodbye.

    I’ll never wish you coming back,
    When you find your place there,
    I’ll never wait for you to come back,
    As I know you’d find happiness,
    In the warmth of your peaceful blanket.

      Dedicated to my beloved Clay, who was once means the world to me. Even when I didn’t really know it then. Or too scared to admit it.

      The one who always believed in me, that I’m better than what I think I am.

      The one who always be there, in good and bad times, even though I kept pushing him away. He just, stayed.

      The one who brought me that small ray of light that happily ever after might be true after all.

      Happy birthday, Love. I know you’re happy now in heaven. I love you, always.

    I.J.G

    The dark corner of my mind (5 of n)

    In Unraveled on August 9, 2013 at 8:00 pm

    “So tell me, what do you know?”, Raven looking somewhat ecstatic to hear everything.

    “Okay, here it is. As you know, management came up with this idea of an event to salvage the bad rumour floating around about the company lately. I’m sure you heard about that. They want to create an event that make us look good, make them look good. It worked as plan until the top three finalist were selected.”

    I listen to myself rambling. How on earth I know about this shit, when no one had no idea?? Anyway, I continued…

    “I still don’t get the relation about all this event with the missing finalist,” Raven look at me, confused.

    Patient, dear. You will know soon enough. That voice. That voice inside my head talking.

    “Well, for the semi-final all finalist should come up with some kind of presentation about environmental problem we’re facing nowadays, how it happens, what’s the remedy and most importantly they have to convince the juries that the company are doing their best to make it happens,” I glance at Raven next to me who still listening intensely.

    “I gotta say, this competition getting weirder and weirder by the minutes. I mean, seriously? Some cheesy competition boasting about environmentally friendly crap. Why would anybody want to join anyway?”. Raven’s shaking her head.

    “Tell me about it. But when 1 million dollar at stake, I guess people will be tempted no matter how cheesy.”

    I continued, “Anyway, the finalists started doing research for their presentation. Unfortunately, the missing finalist stepped on the wrong ground.”

    Raven’s eyes widen and look at me deeply, “What do you mean?”.

    “During his research, instead of finding something good the company had done, he found a big secret he shouldn’t have. Something terrible that could ruin everything. In short, he has to be silent,” I look at Raven calmly. I can tell she’s shaking, horror start to fill her eyes.

    “What are you saying?? You mean someone did all his on purpose to keep him quiet?!” Raven half screaming.

    Yes, dear. He had to be stopped or he will ruin everything. That voice! Oh dear god, what is going on?? And why I get this feeling that I’ve done something terrible?? What have I done??

    I.J.G