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The dark corner of my mind (9 of n)

In Unraveled on December 30, 2013 at 6:59 pm

Me and Raven were running towards the crowd. So many people gather in front of the office building. What the hell is going on?!

Both of us tried to get in front of the crowd to see what happened. But half way through, I realised I stepped on some liquid. Was there flood? But from where?

I looked down and I feel like all my breath was sucked out of me. I  can’t believe my eyes. It’s a puddle of blood! Fresh blood!

I.J.G

The memories of you and me.

In Romance? on December 26, 2013 at 8:12 pm

Until I found you, I didn’t know. Until I touched you, I couldn’t believe it.
For the first time, I don’t need anything else. Even if the end comes, these warm, sunny days are perfect.

In your view of the world, I’m invisible. In your way of thinking, I’m incomprehensible.
The gap between you and me can’t be filled. But perhaps, it isn’t worth worrying about these thing.

Often, I picture us holding hands and watching movies, sitting on benches beneath the old oak trees, hearing your laugh throughout the day and catching your smile when you think I don’t see.
And all I can do is hope that when you close your eyes, your mind is filled with the thought of me.

We meet and we drink coffee, and we talk about our lives and we listen to each others stories hoping that the other will bring up how much they miss the other but no one wants to be that weak.
No one wants to admit that they miss someone so much their bones ache.

But the memories we make. We – fill the spaces we live in with them. That’s why – I’ve always tried to make sure that wherever I live, the longer I live there – the spaces become filled with memories.

The time I spend with him has always been soothing. He would always listen to what I have to say without getting defensive. And there would never be awkward silences either.

I kept thinking about them over and over, and before I realised it, my heart was captured.
My very existence, behaviour, words.

I.J.G

Give me sunlight

In Unraveled on December 11, 2013 at 9:05 pm

Even now I don’t know how it happened. Before I realised it, you were constantly in my sight and that, for no reason whatsoever, terrified me. I thought you’d been following me. Then one day I realised, I was the one following you and I was the one who wanted to be killed. I wonder how I’ve manged to live up till now. Don’t know how, but I’ll get by. Slowly pull myself together.

This is just self-defense. Whenever I get betrayed, it heightens up. Not wanting to be hurt. When I don’t know all about the other party. I feel insecure. I want to believe in you, but first let me say this: with me like this, the wound that I caused has slowly healed as if like a child and made me feel a bit lonely, what can I do in the face of your strength?

But with this, I really… My sister, my family, I’m betraying all of them, aren’t I? Even if it’s like this, the sin I’ve committed, somehow it’s maddening. But it’s sweet, isn’t it? The truth of the matter is, despite how hard you try and fight to stay in control, when it’s all said and done, sometimes you just outnumbered.

I won’t leave. Because the night has finally ended. It’s the end. Although it’s not a morning that I have been looking forward to.

The sensation feels like sinking into the silver-coloured darkness and the memories afterward are so mixed up. My thoughts completely stopped. They oversee this body won’t do what it’s told.

There is no morning, only my sky doesn’t have mornings. So, I keep looking towards the east to reduce the darkness that keeps descending upon my shoulders. Please give me sunlight. I don’t want to be alone. I’m afraid of being alone.

So, where’s my happy ending?

I.J.G

The dark corner of my mind (8 of n)

In Unraveled on December 10, 2013 at 7:41 am

What with this bonus challenge? How come I can’t recall anything about it.

Me and Raven is walking from the train station which apparently linked directly to our office building. This place is awfully familiar, but why on earth I can’t place it in my memories?

Raven looks so excited with the upcoming challange. She looked at me, “I mean I don’t know how you can come up with this idea for a game! I got to tell you, the first time I heard it I thought: ‘that’s crazy! Nobody will do that dangerous stunt!’ But you pulled through with the concept anyway AND the board agreed!”

I smiled, “Oh, don’t worry. Everything was planned as it should be. No need to worry about the details.” Raven looked at me with a puzzling look and then look at her watch, “Oh! We missed the opening. It should’ve started by now.”

Yes, the clock has started. No turning back now.
That voice! MY voice inside my head. What does it mean? No turning back from what exactly?! What have you done?!
No, dear. What have YOU done.

Just a second after that, me and Raven heard loud scream that broke off the peaceful afternoon.

I.J.G

Reality check: Life’s short!

In Daily living on December 8, 2013 at 5:54 pm

Recently I just got a shocking news, my elementary school friend passed away. None of us believe it when we first heard it. I mean it seems only yesterday I still saw his post on social media, meaning he was just fine.

My bestfriend, Cindy, was the one told me about it. She asked whether I’ve heard the news. I was like “No, I haven’t heard anything. Are you serious? I mean what happened?”

Apparently there’s an accident at his work place that he fell down from third floor. No one was really certain about what went down, all we know was that we lost our friend. Just like that. Without any warning, nada.

He was a good guy, very kind and gentle. A nice friend. Yet he left so early. Like often people say, good people gone too soon. He’s indeed gone too soon.

The sad part is he was just got engaged not long before the accident. They just about to plan their life, their journey together. But I guess God has another plan. I can imagine how the fiancè must feel, I’ve been there myself. No matter what people said you can help but falling apart. Like the world closing in on you.

Since I’m out of the country, I can’t really come to the funeral. I can only givr my condolences from afar. My hearts goes to his family and loved ones.

This incident reminded me once again that life IS short. So live your life to the fullest. Enjoy the sunny breeze, feel the strong wind, dance in the rain, hug your loved ones while you still can. Cause who on earth knows what will happen tomorrow. Or whether there will be a tomorrow that you’re waiting for.

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about those who don’t. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would most likely be worth it

By: Harvey MacKay

I.J.G

Listening to We Need a Little Christmas (Glee Cast Version) by Glee Cast

In Uncategorized on December 2, 2013 at 7:38 pm

🎶 For I’ve grown a little leaner, grown a little colder, grown a little older. And I need a little angel sitting on my shoulder, I need a little christmas now 🎶

Listening to We Need a Little Christmas (Glee Cast Version) by Glee Cast

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