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In Random on January 26, 2015 at 11:34 pm

But sometimes when an actual example appears,
it all comes down to a question of whether or not you accept it, or if you believe it.
There’s no middle ground.
You have to make a mental leap.
Logic isn’t really helping you out.

Maybe it can’t.
Logic isn’t some convenient manual you just consult.
Later on, though, you should be able to apply logic to any given situation.

I don’t believe in anything.
Not in logic, or illogic.
Not in God, or the devil.
No extension  of a hypothesis, nothing like a leap.
I just silently accept everything as it is.
That’s my basic problem, really.
I can’t erect a decent barrier between subject and object.

– Colourless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Year of Pilgrimage
by: Haruki Murakami

P.S.: Recommended book ūüėČ



Ready for the real world (?)

In Daily living, Random, Unraveled on August 16, 2014 at 12:29 pm

Say we figure out how to lower the global temperature and find away to safely break down all the plastic we’ve dumped, all the toxins we’ve unleashed.

Maybe we find a way to bring population growth down to a sustainable level and resurrect species we’ve killed off. Wouldn’t that be wonderful?
Wouldn’t that be just peachy?

And if that’s the case, our little group, we become nothing but happy fools. That’s Plan A for humanity.

We’re launching Plan B. We’re the ones who love life so much that we have to pass it on. What is to come is a beautiful age, a heroic age.

The impending dystopia you talk about only looks like dystopia to those of us who’ve lived surrounded by privilege. To everybody else it’s called history. I need to be here for those people. They’re my people. I belong to them.

And then he left?


And now you’re here.

Are we finished? Is it time? 

Yes. Are you ready to see what the real world looks like now?

Yes. Show me.

– Blueprints of the Afterlife
By Ryan Boudinot

Seriously a perfect ending to this amazing book. When I first picked it up I never thought it would be this good! Great reading indeed!


What kind of world you imagine?

In Random, Unraveled on August 11, 2014 at 10:37 pm

What do you think is beyond that door? This isn’t a rhetorical question.
What’s beyond that door?

I don’t know.

Well, there’s a hallway,  some offices, a break room with vending machines for soft drinks and snacks, a parking garage.

Beyond that there’s a city, with streets lined with stores. There are dry cleaners, gas stations, churches and schools.

There are freeways leading to the suburbs where there are homes where people live. And in those hones are kitchens where food is prepared, bedrooms where people sleep and dream, garages where they put their cars.

People typically get up and go to work 5 days a week then spend spend a couple days doing whatever they want. People take vacations, make money, meet partners, have children, get old, get admitted to hospitals, then die.

Every year there are a couple new and exciting electronic gadgets that people get excited about. People pay attention to sports scores and who celebrities are sleeping with. They try to get promotions to get more money to spend on stuff for themselves.

Some of them go to community gatherings, some get obese, a very few commit criminals acts and get incarcerated. There are addicts, social workers, software developers, bus drivers, attorneys and teachers.

Everyone getting up in the morning, taking showers,  listening to the radio on the way to work, catching a movie on the weekend or doing some gardening.

That’s the world out there. Not some fucked-up nightmare. So things got a little hotter there for a while that’s to fossil fuels. We’ve had wars, some instances of genocide. A terrorist attack on occasion. But overall, we see problem, we fix them, and we move on.

You’re a nihilist. You’ve given up on the
You said it yourself, “It’s flattering to imagine that you’re so important that somebody struggle over your fate”, but you feel for it too. You let your imagination get the best of you. Imagining a postapocalyptic future is just a way to cope with your sense of being an outsider.

Since you can’t fix the disappointments of your real life, you imagine a future life in which you’ve miraculously survived and are looked to. But this is all there is. All we have are roads, buildings, institutions, commerce, entertainment, governments and jobs. This is the real world. There is no other world.

I’m done here.

I’m not trying to get into a fight. But I think we’ve reached a point when we have to change the fundamental question.  Instead of asking what kind of world you live in, it’s time to ask what kind of world you want.

Too late for that.

It’s not, though. It’s entirely up to you.  What kind of world can you imagine? A sick world of suffering? Or one of beauty and light?

What’s it going to be?

– Blueprints of the Afterlife
(I told you this book is great ;))


Insignificant (?)

In Random, Unraveled on August 9, 2014 at 9:30 pm

It’s flattering to imagine that you’re so important that somebody struggle over your fate.
But what if it’s just the opposite?
What if we’re too insignificant for anyone to really give a shit about what happens to us?


Words is..

In Daily living, Random on November 27, 2013 at 8:21 pm

“There is always time to add a word, never to withdraw one.”
– Baltasar Gracian

Love this quote! It’s so true! Your words it’s like double blades knife. It can really powerful, either to lift someone up or push them off the cliff.

It’s all depends on you, what kind of words you would want to be saying. Is it a sugarcoat white lies or truthful though hurtful.

So think before you speak, because your words is powerful. It could be your weapon. Choose them wisely.


Line Games: Pokopang – The Moral Behind It

In Daily living, Random on October 31, 2013 at 5:20 pm

I’m down with flu and slight fever so I have nothing to do all day at home but lying on my bed trying to get as much rest as possible. Anyway, I keep playing this game, Pokopang, on my phone to kill time.


This is a simple puzzle game where to draw line and join the same color blocks  (at least 3 blocks) to get it explode to attack the monsters. In order to get the higher score, you can upgrade your attack powers, get maximum of 3 helping animals to tackle the monsters and some tools to help me explode as much color block as you can.


So anyway, when I am alone and bored, my unraveled mind starts to wonder. I got some insights about the moral behind this game! Yes, you got it right I can see some vague moral point from a game! That’s how random my mind can be apparently.

When you complete 1 short game, you’re collecting more and more cherries. You can use the cherries to buy helping animals, upgrade your attack power or buy some tools for you to use during the game. It got me thinking, you have to choose wisely!

1. Buying tools to help us get higher score

In this game, you can buy some tools like bomb (to explode all color block surrounds it), timer (extra time of course), rainbow painter (makes the same color blocks nicely line up), etc.

If you use your cherries to get tools to get help you get as much point as possible during the game. This is the same as in real life. You will try to get something to make your life easier, more convenient. In this game, it will cost you your cherries and sometimes until you don’t have enough cherries left to buy anything. In life, we also tend to spend our money for things we thought will be useful for us. But if we’re not careful we will end up “cherry-less“, spend all of our money. So we need to think wisely, when will will need to buy the tools to help us, which tools we need, which one most effective, and so on. And most importantly not to use up all the cherries we have.

And what I realised, sometimes even with the tools you’re not necessarily that higher score. You have to know exactly how to use the tools and when to use it. Or else, it’ll just cherries going down the drain.

2. Choosing helping animals

You can have maximum of 3 helping animals to help you tackle the monsters. You also using cherries you got to summon the helping animals. These animal carry their own attack power, and some of them has some additional powers like giving to extra bomb. So logically you will go for the animals that have highest attack power and as much as additional power as possible.

I summon almost all the animals available so it’s just a matter of which 3 of them I choose to help me during the game. Anyway, there’s this new animal for Halloween theme. It has the highest attack power compare to my existing animals, but this one don’t have additional power. But then I thought: “It has highest power though, it will give me higher score for sure if I use it!” So I changed 1 of the animal I used with this new one. I was playing for sometimes and then I realised I didn’t really get higher point! So maybe that additional power really important! So I changed back my animal with the previous one which has this additional power.

The moral of this is sometimes, it takes more than just strength, attack power. Sometimes you have to have something extra in your life. That additional power that will help you through.

3. One tool to get your friend’s animal to help you tackle the monster

In this game, there are friend points which you can use to buy a tool so that you can ask your friend’s animal to help you. The moral of this is rather straight forward, isn’t it? Sometimes, you need a helping hand. You can’t do it alone. You need someone to help you get through life, especially during hard times.

4. Lucky charm

Sometimes, during the game you get “Lucky”, it’s when suddenly your color blocks exploded and you got higher score, just like that. This applies in real life! Believe it or not, you need that little luck every once in a while. The unexpected but brings that happiness in you.

I think more than everything else, you have to have some strategy or moves in this games, choose which blocks to explode first so that you can get higher score.

So there you go! All you need is a little combination of strength, some things (or tools) that can make your life slightly better, a helping hand or friends, a little luck and of course your very own moves to know when do you need some tools, some helping hand, using your own strength or when you need a lucky charm.

I’m rambling…again!


Who am I…?

In Daily living, Random, Unraveled on October 25, 2013 at 9:56 am

The people close to me often said: “I know you too well that you will or will not do (something)”.

Somehow it got me thinking, how well can you know or understand someone?

Even the ones closest to you. Your parents, siblings, spouse, boyfriend or girlfriend, or your best friends.

How do you get to know them well? From their habits, body language, the way they talk?

Well, maybe.

For me, I can’t say I know anyone well, even my closest ones for that matter.

Most of the time, I don’t understand why my mom still crying over the bastard.

I don’t understand why my sister so defensive when people ask her simple question about her day.

They always say I’m ignorance, that I don’t care with my surrounding, that I am more logical. That’s why I don’t understand why people feeling what they’re feeling.

I admit that I am thinking more logically rather than using my feeling first. It’s easier. Things¬†actually¬†makes¬†sense.

But I do care, maybe to the extend that most people do, but I really do.

I don’t think that I need to explicitly express myself to them, just to show that I care.

I don’t understand why does it matter to me, anyway.

I guess before you try to understand others, you need to understand yourself first.

The thing ¬†is, more often than not, I don’t even know myself.



In Random, Unraveled on October 19, 2013 at 5:19 pm

Do you ever have moments when you feel like you’re seconds from losing it?
I have. Big time.

I always feel caught up in this situation I can’t seem to get myself out of it. Believe my I’ve tried. But nothing really changes.

It making me frustrated, angry and all kinds of emotion I can’t even begin to describe one by one. I’m losing my mind, myself.

Ok, things do change. But then not the thing I hope for. So much for a wish come true, huh?

Change is inevitable. Nothing remains the same for long. We either adapt to change or we get left behind.

They say maybe I need to change instead. The way I see things, my point of view. But, everyone entitle for their own opinion right? Why am I being judge for my point of view?

I’m rambling.


Alone or lonely…?

In Daily living, Random on October 16, 2013 at 3:41 pm

I like drinking coffee alone and reading alone.
I like riding the bus alone and walking home alone.
It gives me the time to think and set my mind free.
I like eating alone and listening to music alone.
But when I see a family, father, mother and their kids together,
Or a couple, boyfriend with the girlfriend,
Or a friend laughing with her best friends,
I realise that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely.


Why oh why

In Random on September 8, 2013 at 10:07 pm

If I keep feeling this way, I might die.
It’s better this way, but why is it my heart breaking and I feel like crying?